Hmm.... Happy Thanksgiving!

Ive been thinking a lot lately, and anyone who knows me knows that my thoughts are my worse enemies.. Some things have been slipping and falling apart and Im desperately struggling to pull the pieces back together.. I just do not know what I can do to make things right.. Everythings falling apart and I do not know how to grasp the pieces to glue them back together

As always, a part of me just wants to let go, and in a sense I have... I just do not let things get to me, or I just do not care about certain things anymore.. but this is good

I guess Im just taking a step back and analyzing my life, and questioning what is real

So what is real? How do I seperate the fake from the real? What is the difference anyways? I just cannot tell anymore.. Something substantial is in dyer need here, so where do I get it?

-Tess

Btw This does exclude some things or some people, because there is a selected few that keep my head on straight when needed and I love yall

Currently Listening For All of This By Early November see related

What a weekend! I am so tired it isnt even funny lol well maybe its a bit funny but it wont be if I dont catch some sleep here in a little bit... so for whoever is interested in my exciting life---

Friday- After work Nate and Matt picked me up and we went to Pockets with Kyla and Sasha, well Nate taught me how to play pool (thank you very much) and even though I do suck, it was fun and cool, Kyla and Sasha left early and we went to taco bell for a little bit before driving Matt home, Nate missed the Euless Main exit and got us lost on our way back to my house lol it was kinda funny and then Nate and I talked for a little bit before he went home, so Friday night was awesome

Saturday- Worked allllll day  and the guy who bugged me for my number thursday showed up at my job and freaked me out big time, so pretty much Nate and Matt came to On The Border to escort me to my job, we went back to my house so I could get changed and meet up with Kyla, Kyla and Matt went to go pick Sasha, We were supposed to meet at Starbucks, but Kyla sent us to the wrong one lol so we had to go alllllll the way over to where Kyla Matt and Sasha were *big sighs* that was a little frustrating then we went to taco bell where once again Kyla and Sasha left early, we played with bouncy balls or more like Nate bounced them around taco bell  lol then umm.. what did we do? oh lol drove around went to walmart and yeah went home.. towards the end of the night things werent so great on my behalf, but Nate and Matt are awesome  I ended up goin to bed at 4 so yeah.. that was solving some things which Im happy we solved but dont know if I should have been in the predicament to begin with anyways... sunday---

Sunday- Yeah woke up wayyyy tooo early! Like at 10ish my brother Chris called and woke me up, but its cool b.c I got to talk to him and I miss him  then I cleaned my room and went out to On The Border to eat with Meagan and Kyla and got to see my favorite waiter Jeff  They all put me on the spot about something but its all good, then me and Meag got starbucks, watch, shes goin to get me ADDICTED! and we went to the mall.. Im telling you Im the PICKIEST person when it comes to jeans! OK I found 3 pairs that I liked and lets just say 2 of them I already have lol so Im lucky I found the other ones  Aeropastle of course, I love their jeans, and 2 shirts also, so now Im home, I had fun today despite how tired I am so thanks Meagan

So I just hope I can get through another week of school and the psat's saturday...  I know this weekend will be good so yeah.. ttyl

Hmm.. Top 5 favorite songs riiiight now???

Thanks Mego

1.Colors- Crossfade

2.Duality- Slipknot

3.Given- Seether

4.Ever so sweet- The Early November

5.Ghost Man on Third- Taking Back Sunday

Ok so I tag Manda, Kayla, Leana, Randi, Jess and umm... oh Rach

Currently Listening Duality By Slipknot see related

Hmm.. Today is Thursday which definitely excites me b.c tomaro is of course Friday.. and anyone who knows me knows why Im happy

Today was an awesome day.. just everything about it was good, I was in an awesome mood and nothing went wrong

I was in a weird mood at golf , but then again, Im just weird like that lol

I cant wait until this weekend

<33Tess

Currently Listening Karma and Effect By Seether see related

*Yawns* Lets just say that yesterday was awesome.. well minus one little factor and if you know me/were with me last night you know what Im talkin about.. ANYWAYS..

Last night was good, hung out with Nate, Matt, and Amber, Kyla too.. the only thing that killed it for me was my head being completely somewhere else.. cant help it when you get text messages that dont even make sense *shrugs my shoulders*

So yeah, tonight should be better, I thought I had work, but no I dont, So Im hanging out with Kyla, and whoever else I dont know, probably Nate if he gets whatever hes doing done, but it doesnt really matter, I mean me and Kyla would have fun anyways, Nate just throws some extra spunk into it..

So my heads still somewhere else.. Restless sleep last night and Im still out of it.. Im going to try to snap back into it b.c its hard to have fun when you cant stop thinking about something else.. and I dont want to be like this.. not again, b.c the old days like that straight up SUCK..

So yeah, thats all...

<33Tess